06.04.03 - 9:45 a.m.

it's a sweet comfort to be home again. this feels like home, more than just cos all my stuff is here. It was two months that I was away, and things have changed enough here to prove it. they are finally beginning to build the little park on my street that has been a vacant lot for years, my puppy is now too heavy to pick up easily, the flowers in the garden are blooming... my fish are dead and gone.

I was going to go up to the city last night for a show, i really was, but I just couldnt pull myself away from this quietness. I have been at the beach the last two days, and I felt less afraid of the ocean than I have since I was a kid. I am ready to dive into it now.

I loved being in oakland cos I have more friends there and there is so much stuff to do always, but I think right now I need to be someplace that is not dirty and scary and overwhelming. here it is beautiful and safe and simple, and that is what I choose. I have a lot of things to do myself, and it's about time I began.

past - future